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[Oct. 1st, 2006|12:32 am] |
i like a boy :)
yay for me<<33 |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|02:46 am] |
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when am i finally going to be worth something to someone? |
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[Aug. 5th, 2006|12:57 am] |
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oh that boy. he makes me all sillyness inside. hes so completely unperfect for me that i find him irrestible<3 he says everything i want to hear and i lovvvee it. i love seeing him. :)
dont forget all the good things too. |
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| Whose Hershey Park Happy? |
[Jul. 17th, 2006|11:25 am] |
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Im going to Hershey Park. thats right be jealous. haha or not but thats okay im pumped.
<3
longerletterlater |
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| Vacation!! |
[Jun. 30th, 2006|12:48 am] |
YAY!!!! <3
aww im gonna miss you!! call me |
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[Jun. 25th, 2006|11:47 pm] |
well maybe just a half a drink more.
i hate feeling sick. also poor gilgen ba gilgen<3. its hot.pool=amazingness.you=jealous<33 |
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| Thank you for protecting the citizens of Bensalem township... |
[Jun. 19th, 2006|11:18 pm] |
First Major Burn of the summer! i didnt realize how cool little sisters could be until today. rachels histerical and so much fun to be around. and when shes not consantly being pestimistic shes one of my favorite people to be with.
so much fun at the beach<33
Schick lets do it again sooonn!!!<33
whos excited for this weekend? that be me lover |
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| Ok so its a little weird.. |
[Jun. 18th, 2006|01:13 am] |
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Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it
I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying.
Biff and rachel are hardcore planning for the photo shoot and i think its cute.
Jess im good pretty much anytime next week let me know lover<3 |
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| P is for Personality...right biff? |
[Jun. 15th, 2006|05:30 pm] |
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But youre so independent and you refuse to bend so i keep bending till i break. ive decided that i no longer like boy because theres no passion there. just comfort. and i dont just like comfort.
maureens parents are going away next weekend so party time. and me and biff are having a photo shoot.
if you hate me let me hear it. come on a little louder. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2006|03:07 pm] |
i didnt think it would actually happen but i miss school. i miss the people and the things to do. i mean its not that there arent people at home who im really happy to be with and its not that im bored here bc im not at all theres always something going on. i just miss how easy school is. i miss things that used to be. its not that i want to go back i just need to reajust again. like i havent been physically able to cry since the day my gpop fell over a month ago. i just cant do it. and i dunno im lonely. i think i watch too much scrubs. no friendship is that realistic.
moan moan bitch bitch...
whatever |
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[Jun. 11th, 2006|12:23 pm] |
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im home. i have work tonight. visit me. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2006|12:02 am] |
damn me and liking boy. fuck myself. im so obvious.
i swear if they start scaring me on a regular basis im gonna bitch slap someone.
pampering tomorrow so pumped! |
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[Jun. 5th, 2006|11:53 pm] |
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OMG its almost 6-6-06! Crazy bry scared the poop outta me tonight. we almost all got slashed. i worked alot this weekend. and the kids graduated today! yay for them <3 |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2006|01:27 am] |
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i think for the first time in months ill actually cry tonight. |
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[May. 31st, 2006|09:05 pm] |
I finally got a call from Dairy Queen thank the lord jesus christ. now i have two jobs. as if people didnt see me enough i will now be pulling somewhere between 15 to 20 more hours of hard labor<3!! this makes me happy. but i wont pretend that some recent events havent been unsettling to me. i wanna just have a little faith but its all starting to dwindle and if it isnt addressed soon i think ill explode.
The Hills party is at my house tonight. holla holla.
ps were getting an effin 24 ft wide and 4'2'' deep pool. its BANGING. i cant wait for the rest of this summer. holla holla. |
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| Happy Birthday Rachel! |
[May. 29th, 2006|12:29 am] |
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| | How to Save A Life- The Fray | ] |
Ok so that song pretty much sums up everything im feeling at this exact moment in time. plus some more anger. shame on me for believing you.
Happy Birthday Rachel!!
aww the big 17 |
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[May. 25th, 2006|04:02 pm] |
can i just say I love Elizabeth Schick?
good cause i do |
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[May. 20th, 2006|11:11 pm] |
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assholes all of them |
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[May. 19th, 2006|01:20 am] |
i just cant seem to figure out when this will all seem worth it. im confused.
but i love jess. |
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| Hate me today, hate me tomorrow, hate me for everything I never did for you. |
[May. 11th, 2006|12:58 am] |
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I was thinking alot the past week when I am at my grandparents. Theres not a whole lot to do there so it gives me time to think about who I am as a person and about people around me.
This is the way I have lived my entire life. Avoiding risk at any cost. Being good no matter what. Good Student. Good daughter. Good friend. And yet I am struck by the sudden realization that regret cuts at any cost. I might regret sacrificing my self my own desires in the name of friendship in the name of being a good person. Maybe im just a bad person. maybe the only reason i have been good up to this point has less to do with my moral fiber and more to do with the fear of getting caught. I play by the rules because i am risk-averse. I didnt go along with shoplifting gags partly because i knew it was wrong, but mostly because I was sure I was the one to get caught. I never cheated on an exam for the same reason. So if that is what motivates me to be good, do I really deserve credit? Am I really a good person? Or just a cowardly pessimist? So maybe I am a bad person.
There have also been many different things about my friendships. I seem to have always flock to the people who have very bold and very vivacious personalities. but that also leads to the manipulative and corrosive relationships. i used to be so in love with being controlled. i like the fancy talkers. the ones who tell me what i want to hear. the ones who lie straight through teeth to see me smile. but no more because thats not what friends are for. you shouldnt ever have to feel uncomfortable around people. you should be happy and healthy. you should be able to trust and be trusted. you should be able to deal with the imperfections of friendships without compromising yourself. you should treat the people you love with the same respect you want them to give you. and if that doesnt happen then you have to be smarter about protecting yourself.But then there are the good friendships. the ones you feel like you can be truly yourself in. note that you will be fooled into believing that you have found many of them along the road. but you will realize with time that if you find one really good person who understands you and loves you then you are so beyond what lucky is. |
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